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Lover...Oh, how I hated this word. So pretentious, like it was akways being translated from the French. The tint and taint of illicit, illegitimate affections. 

Dictionary meaning: a persona having a love affair. Impermanent. Unfamilial. Inextricably linked to sex.

Lover...

I have never wanted a lover. In order to have a lover, I must go back to the root of the word. For I have never wanted a lover, but I have always wanted to love, and to be loved.

There is no word for the recipient of love. There is only a word for the giver. There is the assumption that lovers come in pairs.

When I say "be my lover", I don't mean "let's have an affair". I don't mean "sleep with me". I don't mean "be my secret".

I want us to go back down to that root.

I want you to be the one who loves me.

I want to be the one who loves you

-Anis Mojgani